Ok so here we are again in a wait mode. I had my U/S this morning at 845. (no day care kids till 1:30 today) I was confident and eerily calm! That devotion that I read earlier in the week has done wonders for me. "You will not find my peace by engaging in excessive planning". I am a planner and normally I'd be thinking, if we see this on Thursday we can do this Friday and if we dont see this maybe I can get an other US on Friday after work....etc. Anyway Im not doing that this time. I have said my prayers, I have asked God to give my Dr the guidance he needs to help me succeed, and I have asked God to provide me with another healthy little baby to add to my little family. Its in his hands and I trust in that and I am comfortable with that. Do I still hope it goes the way I want? Yep that wont ever go away. But am I worried about it? nope not in this moment, and thats whats most important. Will I be sad if it doesnt work? Probably but as we saw during my first go around with this I was able to get back on my feet. And now I am at a point where I truely believe I will be ok in the end no matter what happens. I love my son dearly and with all my heart want a sibling for him. He wants one as well. I think that if things don't work out as I hope that he will be very dissapointed and this will be my sore spot. Knowing that he will not have siblings. But we will survive and as long as we have each other I will be happy. My child/children will always be my first priority.
Now on to what the actual appointment showed up. I had the US. We saw that there was one main follicle that was of an accurate size for the timing. (there were 2 other small ones as well that he did not measure). It measured between 1.8 and 1.9. My lining was .9. both of these numbers as far as I can remember are the best numbers I have had yet! I am excited about them. Also the fact that there were actually 3 follicles there I believe is good. Dont think I have ever had 3. They were on my right side too. This is only the second time that I will try an IUI from follicles on the right side. This side is good and clear we know this because when I had the HSG 2 weeks ago the dye spilled out on that side easily. He did look at the left side and as usual had a difficult time even finding the ovary. I am not sure if he ever even got a clear look at it today. I dont think there were any follicles. Not sure why he has such a hard time over there! But the fact that the good ones were on the right side is encouraging. After the US the dr came back in to talk to me about our options. He said that If I have my LH surge before saturday that he would like to scarp this cycle and call them not mature. He said that if that is the case that next month at about this same time he would like to give me one tablet of Lupron?? ( think that is what it was) this should stall the ovulation and give me about another 24 hours for follicles to continue to grow. I totally understand what he is saying but also feel like this is a good cycle and if I were to get an LH surge tomorrow I feel like the numbers were all pretty great. Better than all the other times I tried. But I am going to go with his opinion since I have prayed for God to give him the guidance he needs. I am trusting in God and my Dr. Anyway If I safely make it through tomorrow without the LH surge and I peak on Saturday I will more than likely be having an IUI Saturday afternoon. The idea of this excites me. I like this cycle for many reasons. It has been a little bit of a whirlwind. I never expected to be trying this month to begin with. But after having the HSG test and it going so well and then after going off the pill and getting my first normal AF that I have had in a long time. Then scheduling an US and being able to do that on a day where I actually have the morning off, and then if all continues to go well the IUI will be on Saturday which is also a very convenient day where I dont have to ask anyone for help. I just feel like this has been the easiest cycle, with a good AF and good numbers. I want squishy to meet this egg! lol. Also trying to be cool and not get too excited. my back has been achy the last couple days esp today. and the last 3 days I have seen "high" on the monitor. I am hoping for one more day of "high" and then Saturday it can say "peak" Of course this is the waiting part and the part I have no control over. And right here and right now is where I need to relax and not get anxious. I will test for the LH again this afternoon. I will do my normal morning monitor tomorrow. If it doesnt say peak in the morning I am confident we will have made it to saturday!!! Waiting, Praying, and believing!
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